“Remember not against us the iniquities of the past; May your compassion quickly come to us.” This single line from Psalm 79 stood out to me from today's scripture collection. "Remember not the iniquities of the past." This prayer to God holds so much truth to human nature. The further along in a relationship I go, I notice a tendency I have. I remember the iniquities of the past. Not on a day to day basis mind you, but when a new "iniquity" arises, so too all the past ones step forward.

I open my commitment prayer, "I am Yours, and You are mine." I have shared this with you in the past. I remember the first time I "committed" to the commitment prayer. It did not roll right off my tongue, its deep truth did not reveal itself in that moment. Much like the commitment vows I made to Jeff 28 years ago, the reality of the words of commitment are only discovered with time. Jesus freely espouses himself to each baptized christian. He commits to His "yes".

My battle with my body began at the ripe age of 14. "Have you weighed yourself lately, you look like you may have put some weight on?" Ten pounds in fact. It was that moment that the enemy wedged himself into that opening and created for me an identity where I measure myself by a number on a scale. In two months there is a different number of measure that will settle upon me. 50. Yes, I am turning the big 5-0. A moment where many people allow the enemy to come and whisper lies and wreak havoc. Thank the Lord that this approaching number and measure are not controlling my mindset.